Lately I've been thinking a lot about solitude and silence and how often we actually take the time to be still. With all of life's demands, it can seem impossible to set aside time to ponder, meditate, and evaluate where we are in life. However, this quiet time is a form of spiritual exercise, a form of prayer. It is a place we can find clarity and connection. For me, it is during these quiet moments, I have gained perspective and have experienced some truly sacred moments.

A hopeful kind off sad

Truth- life has been a little on the emotional side lately. Today was no exception. Although my heart is heavy, these words keep filling my mind. "She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time."

In this life God allows us to experience sorrow and grief. Because of the suffering of our Savior, Jesus Christ, we do not have to suffer alone. Because of his suffering, we are not lost. In his grace, there is hope.

In Bitterness of Soul | Facing Adversity

I was recently reading examples of women in the scriptures who faced adversity. In the Bible I found the story of Hannah. A woman who had the righteous desire to bare a child but could not. Hannah was married to Elkanah, who was also married to Peninnah.

And Peninnah had children, but Hannah had no children- 1 Samuel 1:2

...the Lord had shut up her womb- 1 Samuel 1:5

Why Getting Through The Holidays Can Be So Hard- #Lighttheworld

In our journey of infertility I have noticed, like most things, some days are better than others. Unfortunately Holidays are some of the trickiest times to get through. I think it’s because some of the best parts of the holidays revolve around family…or maybe it’s because of all the childhood traditions that you can’t wait to experience with your own kids. All I know is no matter how many people you surround yourself with during the busy holiday season, you can still feel incredibly alone. Somehow, Christmas is always the hardest.

As I’ve thought about this I have often felt guilty for feeling this way. After all, this is the Season for giving! A time to remember our Savior, a time to share the peace and joy with others! And yet, I can’t help but feel saddened by the emptiness that fills my heart.